Madea

(please click it since it's all tiny now)

is baaaaaaaack!
oh and you see that date, FEBRUARY 20TH, the greatest date ever!

anyways my post isnt on Madea. I dont really know what its on honestly, I just know lately I've been feeling very _____. I cant even think of the perfect word to go in that blank, maybe because too many different words would fit? But I just havent been on my usual positive tip. I really and truly dont have enough to do, and its just making me mad, and especially angry that I'm here and not at school. And then I was thinking about it, even when I go to school, I'm not going to have friends. Sure I know a hell of a lot of people, but I wouldnt call half of those people my friends. Either way I guess it'll just keep me focused on doing all I wanna do when I get back. I know I'll be very open to new people, cuz the ones I know suck. I cant help but feeling like people let me down, and you know I guess they'll never know because I dont feel like its my place to tell them, sad stuff huh? ANYWAYS, any suggestions as to how to get out of this rut? cuz I'm really not feeling it, maybe its just cuz I was sick last week. I just wish I had something I was doing that I was excited about. This shit is for the birds! Maybe I'll feel better once I start volunteering. hmmm. we shall see. Hopefully I can shake this mood though.
kisses
- D