Madea

(please click it since it's all tiny now)

is baaaaaaaack!
oh and you see that date, FEBRUARY 20TH, the greatest date ever!

anyways my post isnt on Madea. I dont really know what its on honestly, I just know lately I've been feeling very _____. I cant even think of the perfect word to go in that blank, maybe because too many different words would fit? But I just havent been on my usual positive tip. I really and truly dont have enough to do, and its just making me mad, and especially angry that I'm here and not at school. And then I was thinking about it, even when I go to school, I'm not going to have friends. Sure I know a hell of a lot of people, but I wouldnt call half of those people my friends. Either way I guess it'll just keep me focused on doing all I wanna do when I get back. I know I'll be very open to new people, cuz the ones I know suck. I cant help but feeling like people let me down, and you know I guess they'll never know because I dont feel like its my place to tell them, sad stuff huh? ANYWAYS, any suggestions as to how to get out of this rut? cuz I'm really not feeling it, maybe its just cuz I was sick last week. I just wish I had something I was doing that I was excited about. This shit is for the birds! Maybe I'll feel better once I start volunteering. hmmm. we shall see. Hopefully I can shake this mood though.
kisses
- D

WOW

A message from kwest on Vimeo.

alright, well I saw this from Mikey McFly's blog, so I cant take credit, and click the name it'll take you to his blog. and yall ALREDAY KNOW I dont like Kanye West's ass. He makes great music, someone needs to shut him up. I just shook my head on this one. SMH.

angry kisses
- D

La La La

I know you guys have missed me! a few things have changed, lets do bullet points, shall we? great

• I deleted my twitter
• I deactivated my facebook
• I dont have the email I used to make my myspace, so that joint is just stuck, but I never log in.
• I contemplated deleted this blog too
• I'm not having a big huge birthday
• I got sick YET AGAIN.

So, now let me elaborate on such things. I'm at a point in my life where I'm about to be 21 years old, I never would have seen myself to be this person, where I am, all that, at 21 years old. Its not all negative, its just a bit of a wake up call to myself, because everyone deserves that for themselves, to do the best I can, and go after my dreams. Thankfully though, I feel like my dreams aren't long gone or nothing like that, just might take a little extra time to get where I wanna get. Anyhoo, with that said, I didn't really feel like celebrating my birthday, because I didn't feel like there was much to celebrate. lol. and I'm not sad or mad or anything about it, it just is what it is, I lost the excitement I had. BUT YOU ALL DO KNOW THE NEW MADEA MOVIE COMES OUT ON MY B-DAY RIGHT?! I surely will be the first ninja up in the theater that day! as for twitter/facebook, they're just distractions I don't need. I've told you all before how bad of a procrastinator I am, and I was like well I gotta start making changes, so, X-ed them out! My ass has been slacking hard @ Fashion For Breakfast (I'm sorry Tina); but I'll be doing a post this weekend, you know I didn't eat for a week!? I don't know how anorexic people do it, smh. being sick is not the business. anyhoo, that's my little update. I do have a topic I wanna write on, but that joint is gonna be very well thought out, (Bster if you're reading this, you know what it issss).

kisses as always!
-D

I KNOW IM LATE

And technically todays the 20th (oh yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND MELIEKA! 21 BABY!!) buuuuuttt I saw this and I had to share. Ahem:

If you can't fly, run,
If you can't run, walk,
And if you can't walk, crawl,
But no matter what you do,
Keep moving...-MLK

So keep it moving everyday!

Kisses!
- D via blackberry

FASHION FOR BREAKFAST[dot]COM

you're looking at (well reading about) the newest member of Fashion For Breakfast! That's rightttt! I'll be the main squeeze when it comes to all things beauty (makeup, hair, accessories, yadda yadda) over there, so of COURSE this blog is a super strong affiliate! Anyways, bookmark us/subscribe to us, show us some LOVE! We cant give you guys what you want unless we get some comments!

www.FashionForBreakfast.com

I'll be waiting ;)

oh and of course this doesn't mean anything is going to change over here @ deeteezy land, no worries love.

HOPEFULLY the new layout will be up sometime this week *crosses fingers*

and the b-day update is very good, got things set, things are looking up! a real post a little later, I saw "The Reader" today, and I definitely have some things to say about it. Anyways, be safe, and make sure you watch the inauguration tomorrow!

kisses!
- D

RIDDLE ME THIS...

why do people say things KNOWING its going to upset you... and then get mad you get upset?

and to update you guys on the bday situation... its only getting worse. :/ real post whenever I think of a topic that isn't me bitching, lol.

ambivalent

is really the perfect word to describe how I'm feeling right now...

for the unaware, ambivalent can be defined as follows:

1. Uncertain or unable to decide about what course to follow
2. The coexistence of opposing attitudes or feelings (such as love and hate) towards a person, object or idea; A state of uncertainty or indecisiveness

So to elaborate, cuz I know this feeling could be towards a lot of things, a few of you know about how my 21st birthday is next month. My dumbass wanted to do it really big, have a bomb time, because I haven't really ever had a big memorable birthday. So I'm like cool, here's my opportunity, I don't even go out like that, let me have this one weekend on lock.

so I'm not one to leave things to the last minute; well that's a lie, cuz I procrastinate like CRAZY when it comes to school, but with anything else, nah. So, I'm looking around getting my prices together, trying to put plans together, and it's just one thing after another. Now originally I wanted to do a large dinner with about 25-30 guests @ some nice spot in DC, I figured since most of my friends aren't even 21 yet, they could come out that night. That idea is out the door. Most higher end restaurants wont take a party larger than 10 without a set dinner menu, that can cost at least 45/person EASY. Many people don't have money like that especially considering the times. So my nice guest list, got chopped down to 10 of my favorite ladies. Then I wanted to cop a table at this spot on Saturday night, they blatantly said 1000 for a table on the second level (which is the part that's popping) as a starting price. Excuse me? I don't have a real job, I mean I just cant afford it. So that got nexted.

So, I figure cool, lets do the dinner Friday, then get in Sat & Sun at 2 spots for free & as VIP, cuz I know some people. THEN my extra ass is like, "hey lets get a suite so we can party AFTER the club". Now come to find out my mother was going to suggest this anyways, cuz she didn't want us drinking and driving. SO all this hotel drama is going on, what nights, where to stay, who's staying, who's putting in money, who needs to have a bed cuz they paid, who wants to go where. Its just frustrating. Not to mention I'm a female, gotta get 3 different outfits, hair, makeup, nails, like everything is going to start adding up.

This whole situation just has me feeling torn, part of me wants to just say "fuck it" and cancel everything, and just sit in my room with a bottle and call it a day on some depressed pissed off type tip. And then the other half is feeling the complete opposite, like don't give up, its your birthday, you got to do it big. And both of these feelings are equally strong, but completely opposite, I was like geez is that possible. And clearly it is, because there's a word for it... AMBIVALENT.

that's how I'm feeling, guess I just had to get it off my chest; I'll leave this one at "to be continued..."

kisses
- D

BOREDOM / Arab Money

Boredom is a bitch...


and you know the worst part of it? I had mad shit to do today. Why is it when you have shit to do, you never do it, and then you complain about being bored. bitch you wouldn't be bored if you were accomplishing your shit now would you?! End up doing dumb pointless shit...


and I really hate Busta Rhymes for that fucking Arab Money song, for the simple fact of how truly ignorant it is. Do people not realize how many people died for all those Middle Eastern leaders to gain all that wealth? Let me not even start, cuz you goonie goo goo's(that was for you B) are gonna keep playing the shit regardless.

anyhoo, I have class tomorrow, so let me wrap this up and get myself settled :)

kisses
- D

oh ps. these joints right here are BOMB.

Hershey's Cherry Cordial Kisses. mmm mmm good [no campbells]

ELECTRICK RED

ummmm. I kinda like these bitches.

They're The-Dream's new project I guess, Electrick Red (click for their myspace), I've been jammin to their shit ultra hard, they're rather sassy, I can dig it. They currently have a single out, "Drink In My Cup", and it's been getting radio play. My personal favorite is "We Fuck You", haaaaaaaaaa. Anyways, I found them on accident, good ole google, womp womp, etc etc. They're kinda commercial (so if you're a hip-hop head don't click), & I doubt they'll have a long running career, but all my fierce ladies should give them a try.
oh and is it just me, or does their main singer sound JUST LIKE Kelis? Either way, they're Diti approved for now.

kisses,
- D

dogs vs. humans

ahem, now I swear I stay saying how I feel more sympathetic towards animals when they're hurt than I do people. and this morning really reiterated that fact and thought to the fullest.

Now, lets think, you know how you swear up and down you got that unconditional love coming from someone, whether it be your mother, your girlfriend, your husband, your grandmother (nah, grandmothers are excluded from this, cuz them old ladies usually hit you with guilt more so than a full on argument), your life partner, WHOEVER. Now let us really sit here and analyze the shit, yes I'm sure this person does a lot of good in your life, but emotionally, you pay for it. Because as soon as that person gets irritated, mad, annoyed, whatever hidden or small button it is that they do have, and you end up pushing that motherfucker, ALL BETS ARE OFF. That selfless person turns selfish, cuz they don't give a fuck about your feelings or sanity no more, and frankly I am losing mine because of one individual who shall not be named nor disrespected. But all that person is thinking about is how THEY'VE been pissed off, they're not thinking selflessly about nobody, and damn sure not your feelings.

Now, dogs, dogs are some loyal motherfuckers, people beat their dogs, and their dogs still greet them with waging tails everyday. Oh and I don't beat my dogs, they get better treatment than half the people in my life, [before PETA come tryna get my ass]. They don't talk back, they don't emotionally burden you, they just want some food and some love, and they're good to go. They truly are selfless in their love and affection for you. Mommy loves you CoCo!

anyways, this was inspried by me being waken up and getting pissed off by something or someone for 3 days in a row.

kisses
- D

so much for my hiatus..

so they go by "Secret Trois" and surprisingly to me, a lot of their feedback on this video was positive, so big ups to them. I guess I'll support since they're from DC, lol. Opinions?
here's their youtube page if you wanna check out more. http://www.youtube.com/user/SecretTrois

OH, and I want a fucking tutu skirt, anybody know where I can find myself one?
kisses
-D

bootleg hiatus.

so. I was gonna buy a domain, but its not really necessary, lol. I might, we shall see. but this place is currently undergoing a FACE LIFT, my lovely & talented friend is hooking it up! so get excited people! I'll still be around & commenting, but I think I'll "re-launch" in a few weeks when I get the layout up.
hugs & kisses
- D